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anxiety, bipolar, bipolardisorder, depression, health, love, mentalhealth, mentalhealthawareness, wellness
I believe all people have energies to them and I am very good at picking up on these energies. It’s not necessarily that they have positive energies or negative energies. It’s really just how they are feeling — I pick up on it and it affects me. It can be very subtle, from slight body language to a change in tone. I have a very high social IQ. I am also a very empathetic person. However, this can get me into trouble.
I have a friend who is a decent person deep down, but a lot of things have been bothering me about her. Part of it is things I don’t care to get into on here because it just irks me and promotes rumination. Her energy has just become toxic to me. She has a very high amount of anxiety and depression and I can’t be around it. It truly brings me down. I don’t mean this in such a way that I am judging her for her sky high anxiety, but since I tend towards mania with a little bit of anxiety (it’s gotten a lot better) I can’t be around people who also have overwhelming anxiety. Putting two people who are exactly the same in some ways (for us the anxiety) together can sometimes make them butt heads. I feel the tension around her; the anxiety. And it makes my anxiety levels skyrocket.
That’s the problem with being an empath — other people’s energies affect you. They can bring you down and make you feel bad too. I don’t expect everyone to be positive all the time or be perfect but I know when someone else’s energies are toxic for me to be around. This friend has been away for a few days and I have felt much happier not being around her. I know it’s toxic. I know it has to stop.
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